Saturday, October 2, 2010


I don't even know where to begin with this song. I suppose I can describe the very first sign of it. My to-do list on this one Saturday was to get Scooby to his bathshop (Amanda's). I set my alarm so that I would awake on time since I love to oversleep. The alarm goes off at 7:30am.

What it felt like was a jolt of electricity running through my entire body. I had felt this before and with this one, I figured I'd lay still until it passed. But it didn't go away. And then I started to focus on the music playing from my alarm clock. By now, most of the song had passed by, but I could hear the words so clearly.

"You and me together, through the days and nights. I don't worry cause, everything's gonna be alright. People keep talking, they can say what they like. But all I know is, everything's gonna be alright. No one, no one, can get in the way of what I'm feeling. No one, no one, can get in the way of what I feel for you."

"I know some people search the world, to find something like what we have. I know people will try, try to divide something so real. So till the end of time, I'm telling you one, no one, can get in the way of what I'm feeling. No one, no one, can get in the way of what I feel for you."

As soon as the song was over, this electricity feeling stopped. As soon as the song ended, so did this too. I knew right then that I was to pay attention to this song. So I ran to the computer and looked up the lyrics.

"Wow," is all I can say. This one song, for the lack of a better word, haunted me for weeks. I heard it everywhere and continued to hear it when I woke in the mornings. I HAD to pay attention to this one song.

What I get from "No One" is exactly that. No one in this world will ever take away the feelings we have for each other. No one can break us down, no one can tear us apart, and no one can get in the way of how we feel for each other.

But more importantly, everything was going to be alright. Powerful song - full of powerful words.


Puppy Scooby(Dec 07) and Granny Angel
I decide that I need to clean my kitchen on this one Sunday morning. I've ignored household chores for quite some time now. My energy has been low, my depression over Chip's death has taken over everything. But today, I try to snap out of it for a brief time. I load my dirty dishes into the dishwasher and then I stand still in front of the sink. I look out the window and daze out into the back yard.

Suddenly, I'm listening to a short lyric of a song. I hear, "Jeremiah was a bullfrog". Stunned, I immediately snap back into reality. I question myself and wonder where that came from. And then I hear, "Joy to the world, all the boys and girls. Joy to the fishes in the deep blue sea, joy to you and me."

Again, for the second time on this same week-end, I race to the computer room to look up the lyrics. Three Dog Night; oh my god, that's one of Chip's favorite groups. And this song, we attempted a sing-a-long not so long ago.

Joy - that's what I get from this song. Joy to the world, joy to all the boys and girls, joy to fishes, and him and I.


That's "his boy".
I was sitting out on my back porch, drinking my morning coffee and watching the kids (dogs) in the back yard. After a bit, I need a refill. I stand up and when I do, out of nowhere I hear in my head, "8 days a week, I love you."

I'm hearing the actual song itself but I ignore it. I take one step forward, and I hear it again. The same words are flowing through my mind. But I keep walking inside and make me another cup. I then rejoin the kids outside and sit. And once I sit, the song plays again, very loudly but with different words, "Love you everyday girl, always on my mind. One thing I can say girl, love you all the time."

I fly off the porch and run inside to the computer room. I look up the lyrics to the song. All I can say is that I am in heaven. For a brief time today, I am in heaven living with Chip.

Because today, he tells me through a song - he loves me.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


Daddy and His Growing Boy

No one will ever know how deeply this one song has effected me. Still, to this very day, just the core of the title remains a solid piece of evidence for me. I know, without any doubts, that I will never be alone, ever. This song came at a time when I doubted so many people who surrounded me. I remember so vividly walking down a sidewalk thinking to myself. When suddenly my thoughts were interrupted with four words.
"I'll Stand By You".


"That's my boy," he'd say.

Chip used to sing this song to me. I had totally forgotten about it until one evening lying in bed, only a week after he had died, I heard the words to the song play in my head. And when I heard the words, it took me immediately to when I envisioned him sitting behind the wheel of his truck, singing to me over the phone.

I can still remember hearing this one. I was outside getting some fresh air at work. My mind was rolling, like always, about Chip and his recent visit in a dream. Out of nowhere, I heard, "Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound." A moment I'll never forget.

Within the first few weeks after Chip passed, I was on a mad dash search to find someone to help me with the many dreams I was experiencing. I had no idea at the time that they were communications from the other-side. I merely thought I was so depressed that I was losing my mind. In time, I learned to listen. On this one particular cool day in FL, I emailed a Medium asking for help. She resided in Colorado. When I walked outside, I heard as plain as day John Denver's voice singing this song. I later learned that this was my own personal confirmation that yes, I found her. I love you Megan M. Riley! :)

Monday, September 13, 2010


What Chip looks like at 4:30 in the morning.
Standing outside one morning, I feverishly contemplated my future without Chip in my life, as well as the communications that I believed at the time, were causing me to go insane. And then without warning, I could actually hear Olivia Newton-John's voice sing four words. Just four words is all I hear. 
"I Honestly Love You". 


The very first song that I received was while I slept; it was in a dream visit. After the first week of his disappearance, the dreams started appearing nightly. But this song, is the only song that I've ever listened to inside of my sleep world. It's by Karen Carpenter. 
It's called, "Close To You".